hazzan Diana Brewer was ordained through the aleph ordination program. she leads prayer services regularly at the jewish community of amherst, and is on the staff of the davvenen leadership training institute.

Omer Day 12 הוד שבגבורה Hod SheBiG’vurah

Space. Receptivity. Gratitude. Awe. Glory within Strength. Discipline. Boundaries. Discernment.

Today I am making Space for a kind a Strength that comes from vulnerability. I thought I was getting better from the bug that has had me on the couch the last two afternoons, but now I seem to have sprouted a fever alongside the fatigue and malaise. 

I have already canceled several commitments, and have Discerned that I need to cancel several more. I like showing up. I really do. I am profoundly Grateful that the commitments in my life are, by and large, things that bring me great joy and fulfillment. I’m not trying to get out of anything. It takes a world of Strength for me to say “no” to the things I need to postpone right now, and I am Receptive to this. I know from experience that doing otherwise only delays my refu’ah sh’leimah - my full and complete healing. 

Current circumstances being what they are right now, I’m keeping this brief.  

May you be Receptive to surprising varieties of Strength today. May you find Gratitude in your Discernments. 

Omer Day 13 יסוד שבגבורה Yesod SheBiG’vurah

Day 11 נצח שבגבורה Netzach SheBiG’vurah