hazzan Diana Brewer was ordained through the aleph ordination program. she leads prayer services regularly at the jewish community of amherst, and is on the staff of the davvenen leadership training institute.

Omer Day 30 גבורה שבהוד Gevurah SheBeHod

Strength. Discernment. Boundaries. Judgement. Withholding within Awe. Receptivity. Space. Wow! Splendor.

First, I must say I am delighted that I finally figured out how to make this app talk to my Hebrew keyboard again. The latest update made trouble, and I haven’t been able to write out the Hebrew for several days! A tech wizard I am not.

Now that that’s out of the way…

Awe - that place where fear meets amazement. I do not think fear is a useless feeling. I am well aware of its capacity to incapacitate, and yet, there is a place for it. There is an ongoing debate in Hasidic teachings about the relative value of love and fear as vehicles for Divine connection. I say the answer is YES, with a leaning towards love.

However, there is Strength to be found within a certain type of fear. At its most basic, an appropriate fear response causes the release of a good dose of adrenaline, giving us a reserve supply of physical Strength and Endurance at just the right moment.

The fear that is part of the mixture of the complex color of Awe can generate a certain kind of Strength. There is Strength in feeling my tiny-ness amidst the vast Space of Creation. It may seem counterintuitive, and yet, I find that there is a great, energizing love that comes swooping in on the coattails of these fearsome Awe experiences. In those moments I am Receptive to the Divine Love, and it Strengthens me. I feel Divine Gevurah, and I know that I am held.

Today, may you find Strength in the complexities of Awe. May you feel held in the vastness of it all.

Shabbat shalom.

Omer Day 31 תפארת שבהוד Tiferet SheBeHod

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